What do you do when you love someone more than they love you? Do you wrap your heart in armor and push him away, lie through your teeth and make him think you don’t care to avoid getting hurt? Do you curl up until you’re so small that you’re almost invisible and hide behind blades of freshly cut grass, letting the world spin without you? Do you let salty tears leak down your cheeks and tell yourself that you’re not worth his time anyway? Or do you take a breath so deep that you feel your lungs might explode and move forward, somehow finding the bravery to continue loving him with all your heart and finding the patience to wait for him to eventually catch up?
You might feel like you’re weak when you’re crying over what seems like nothing to everyone else, I sure did. As the salty tears slid down my cheeks, I felt like the most pathetic, worthless person in the entire world—but then I realized that maybe it’s okay to cry over someone you love because, goddamn, they really know how to make you feel things again.